I'm torn apart whether to be nice and treat as nothing happen or be nasty and get the respect that I deserve. 

But usually the approach I use is always the COLD WAR. I just refuse eye contact. Refuse to smile. Refuse to text long statements. Refuse to hold hands. 

I'm sad that my marriage has become like that. It has become the most unromantic relationship and a whole lot of commitment. 

Frankly. Other than having financial support and occasional gift pampers. I find the man absolutely useless. I resent him so much. Mainly because I know he don't love me as much anymore. 

He is best at hurting me. Best at disrespecting me. Best at humiliating me. Best at blaming me. 

Maybe I overexaggerated. I'm just in a foul mood right now and I feel like scolding someone.

I really need to find my peace. Only my son can make me really smile from the bottom of my heart now. 

最近真的觉得感情好丰富。尤其对妈妈的爱。听着莫文蔚-如果没有你 一想到妈妈就忍不住落泪。所以妈妈你要坚强喔。希望我能永远照顾你。希望你快快找到属于你的幸福。

I long said I wanted to eat the line from Shang. And he refuse to bring me there. I long said I want to eat high tea at Fullerton and he did nth about it too. I feel like a caveman and it's been so long since I go out. He doesn't bring us out during weekends. Because he always have football or golf in the middle of the day. What a sucker! 

Sick of that man. Only ask him to look after riordan for 20 mins and after 2 minutes he just passed it to the helper. Also, he has the cheek to say because his dad is short enough that's why he can bend down and hold Riordan's hand to walk. He can do everything for his golf and football. Travelling from east to west. Hurting is heels. But he cannot do something for his own son. I really had enough. 

Guard my heart

Only babies don't break them. They tire u out. But the will never hurt u. Nv give ur heart to anyone except God and ur own baby. :) reminder to self. 

Missing my son terribly now. U know even though I had to wake up in the middle of the night to attend to him, I absolutely love it. I really enjoy having him sleeping on my chest, singing to him, patting him, stroking him. What a crazy mother! And it saddens me a little to know my pregnancy bump will grow bigger and bigger each day and probably I won't be able to do the same for him after that. Saddens me when I know sooner or later, he will be sent to sleep with helper as I'll likely be breastfeeding the younger child... How I wish they had wider age gap so that I can enjoy their growth whole heartedly. But sg50 and year of goat is a little hard to resist ..... 

It's been too long a guy said sweet words into my ears. And this just made me realise how deprieved I am. A simple. U miss me ah..? Brings me back to my courtship days in younger days. His voice was so gentle and sweet :)