End up my mum is not able to commit herself to take care of my baby. I ended up switching my work to 3 day work week. My first reaction was happy. Because I get to see my baby more frequently. But when the night falls, I started to feel the tiredness. Just the thought of taking care of him 24/7 makes me fearful already. 

Being a sahm isn't easy. No rest day. No friends. No activities. Only baby here baby there :( I really forsee I can't do it. But what to do, after my maternity leave is used up. I will have to quit my job and be R's caregiver. Sigh..

I need to start smth to do. Either freelance or start cooking. If not I will be super bored and grumpy. And my rs w hubs will suffer