Upset.

I am upset because I felt like I'm being ignored or not respected most of the time. I don't feel love at all. Even the mil was better treated by my own husband than he is towards me. 

It's disheartening and I don't know if it's right for me to think this way. I really don't know who to talk to or ask help from. 

So here are some blessings that I need to count. 

1. Last night he came in to the room while I was patting riordan to sleep. Stood on the bay window and release the catch on the curtain. 

2. He took leave to accompany me when he knows my mum is leaving. Worrying that I cannot handle the situation by myself. 

3. He chose to work from home on the bail date of my dad because he is worried for my safety 

4. He always make sure he is there for all my scan appointment and takes a video of the process 

5. He suggested going to Australia to find my mum. 

6. We really went ahead and he paid for the air tickets and expenses 

7. He prompted me to send him images of the balenciaga bag I was looking for when he knows his colleague is there. 

8. He drops me at work every single morning even during the days he don't have to work

9. He picks me up from work when I request. 

10. Haha should I be contented ? Sigh.