Guard my heart

Only babies don't break them. They tire u out. But the will never hurt u. Nv give ur heart to anyone except God and ur own baby. :) reminder to self. 

Missing my son terribly now. U know even though I had to wake up in the middle of the night to attend to him, I absolutely love it. I really enjoy having him sleeping on my chest, singing to him, patting him, stroking him. What a crazy mother! And it saddens me a little to know my pregnancy bump will grow bigger and bigger each day and probably I won't be able to do the same for him after that. Saddens me when I know sooner or later, he will be sent to sleep with helper as I'll likely be breastfeeding the younger child... How I wish they had wider age gap so that I can enjoy their growth whole heartedly. But sg50 and year of goat is a little hard to resist ..... 

It's been too long a guy said sweet words into my ears. And this just made me realise how deprieved I am. A simple. U miss me ah..? Brings me back to my courtship days in younger days. His voice was so gentle and sweet :) 

I just want to steal abit of time from work to write this. All of us here is actually very blessed. If we open our eyes and look at the world out there, how other beautiful children are suffering, how poor people has no money to treat their illness nor to have a proper living condition. Comparing to them, what more can we ask for. What more can I ask for? Sigh. I pray for the less fortunate people out there. Especially the children. I have such weak spot for them right now. Hope they are coping well

It's the same ending. Somehow when I decided to draw back, he would draw closer. After 4 nights of cold replies, he relented on the 5th night and gave me xoxo. Though it still feels like a trap. I'm trying not to fall in too deep.....