It's going to be a family of four in the new year! So exciting. So challenging. So blessed. So joyful. Thank you daddy God for being our provider.  

Last day of 2014

So today is the last day of 2014. The most challenging year in my life would be this year. And it's also a life changing one for me. I braved through pregnancy and childbirth and has come to know what is motherhood all about. I am so thankful for everything. I am so thankful my breastfeeding relationship with R has surpassed what I have aimed! Thankful for such a lovely boy and a joyful family. Thankful that my mum is recovering well from her depression and that brother has finally got himself a family he calls his own. Looking back, I just want to jot down on the things I hAve learnt. 

The friendship with kaya. It was short yet memorable. Terrible pity to lose a friend because of my insensitiveness. 

My limited time with mum. Time is flying faster than we know and I really need to start cherishing each day with my mum. 

My marriage. I should really stop micro picking faults with my husband and start jotting down the nice things he has done. 

Ok will pen down more when i have the  inspiration. Till then take care !

And so the pregnancy is confirmed. Hopefully this would be a smooth process. My nursing relationship is also about to end. But I'm glad nothing much changes. My baby is still able to sleep after he drinks his formula milk. 

Seems like today Will mark the end of my breastfeding relationship with my boy. Gave in to his request last night and tonight by topping up extra fbm. I mean seeing his smile is the best thing. So I shall release the comfortness and shelfishness in me. 

Suspecting that I'm pregnant with second one too. Used 2 test kits. Going for the scan this Friday. Hope all would be well. 

Lift this up to gods hand. Dear daddy god. I'm thankful for what u hV planned for me so far. 

Felt that our relationship is drifting apart. But I shall not pin point anything to him since he always say it's me who is trying to pick fight. Just go with the flow. 

Anyway what is important now is what I can do for my baby. I really need to find out ways to increase my milk supply! Where did my supply go suddenly. Been praying about it. Oh lord please give me abundance of milk flow for little riordan. I am really not ready to give up latching him. I enjoyed it so much. Call me possesive but it's a time where mommy and son bonds all alone. And how many times it has provided comfort to him. 

Dear daddy God. Please please bless me with abundance of milk supply once again. I will do all things to keep it. Such as not getting pregnant again.