No more love left to give.

Shared this with sis in law today .... I don't know since when,  I have 1001 of complains about TW especially when it comes to kids. And sometimes I will be sacarstic in the way I talk to him. I apologised for that before, but I cannot help it when I see him having this heck care attitude towards his own kids. It's quite frustrating to see him playing his phone or minding his own business at home, when the time he spends with his kids are already so limited. At home, he can totally block me and the kids out. Eg: during depavali ph, no doubt we spent a great shopping day at vivo city(it is very rare he can commit a whole day to bring the whole family out), but when we return home, quintus started being fussy. I tried to latch him, he cried. Make him sleep, he cried. Then I told TW who is on his laptop, that I don't know what quintus wants. TW ignored, which I'm used to it. Then later on his pacifier dropped and the new one is quite difficult for me to reach especially when quintus is crying really loud. So I asked TW to help me get Q's pacifier, but he was super pek chek, and he walked over to where all their pacifier and milk bottles were - and not even searching for the pacifier, he gave me a look like he don't know where is the pacifier. Then Mildred came out from toilet, and gave me what I needed. TW said something under his breath, I need to work and walk back to his laptop, a little frustrated. I seldom ask him for help. And this is what I get. So I ask what is he doing, and he told me "work la". I asked "Isit very urgent", and he mummered "fei hua, u think I got nth better to do". -.-

And last Sunday, when Mildred had her off day, I was making q sleep. He finally slept, but not deep in sleep. Thus, I held on to him. Then I told TW to make milk and send riordan for his morning nap. Then he just shoot back, I don't know how to make milk. I shoot back and said i don't know either. End up, r didn't get any milk and went to nap. My point is, as a father of two, u don't even know how to make milk ? Or not even interested to learn. And then later on, he went to nap after riordan sleeps. So later at 12, after r wakes up, i started to feed r. But q was fidgeting in sarong. So I had to go inside the room, rock him, come out to feed r. Repeats about 3 times, I decided to wake TW up. Told him I need his help to rock q. He SLOWLY stroll out....... And started rocking q, but after 10 mins disappeared... and I realise he went toilet. I thought it's just for awhile, so again I split myself into 2 to make sure both kids are attended to. Left r alone for awhile, while I rock q. Only to realize r spill the bowl all over. After 5 mins, I knocked the toilet door and told TW I need help. And he just told me "I LS" sighhhh. I am sooooooo pek chek. He is just being him, yet again. Placing himself at the toppest priority. Then he popped a medicine, had his lunch and went back to sleep again. About 3 plus, he woke up and hey! He's going for his football!!! 

Then yesterday, when he returned home from work, and after he finished his dinner, riordan run to him with books. TW never even look at him. Then I sacarstically said "ur daddy don't even want to give u another look". Then TW took the books from riordan. I thought he wanted to read to him. Instead he ask riordan, "what is this?" Of cos riordan can't reply. Then he close the book and ask r to stack those mini books up. Then i injected again. Saying "can't u read to him? Why ask him to stack the books?"

So I took the books over, (while latching q), and started reading to r. Then tw's was lying on the sofa, so r has no space to sit, and he had to stand beside tw's very nice feet. I told TW to put his feet away. Then he become very pekchek saying I nag at him and whatever he does or not do, I have things to say. Then he threw tantrum

At r. When r purposely throw a book near TW, he scolded R and ask him to pick it up. After r picks up, he said I had enough nonsense from both of u. No more bullshit from u two from today on. He walked into the masterbedroom, and close the door loudly. 

 

Sigh.

... I really wished he could spend more effort in his kids. Many times he will also take for

Granted that Mildred is around to help. But i don't really like the fact that my kids are close to helpers. But I cannot care for

Two at the same time. We often have disagreement and arguments especially when my mum is not around. 

U understand my concern? Sometimes when I see sam knowing how to handle his own kids, I really hope TW can be half like him, or when I heard my friends hubby offering help, I can't help but to feel envy of them.

The best thing that can happen for me is to see TW and r/q bonding together, knowing that  he would guide and teach his own son. It is more than just, ensuring he has enough milk powder, having his vaccinations taken, or disciplining him through yelling or simply just by saying "no" when r is at fault. But many times, TW just give excuses like "q don't like me to carry." Or I'm tired, etc.... 

I just wanted to ask if it's normal for me to feel this way, or should I be more understanding towards TW and accept the way he is. This marriage has become a lot of giving in, and enduring. Isit suppose to be like that?

1. Leaving Her Alone

One of the quickest ways to destroy your marriage is to leave your wife alone. This means things like spending long hours at work and following it up by a beer or several afterward with the guys. Then, when you get home, you don't engage her or your children. Instead, you lose yourself in baseball or computer poker. Also, on the weekends, you'll complain about the messy house, then leave to run errands, and then you don't come back for several hours.

One of the most most miserable experiences for a wife is that feeling of isolation when her husband emotionally leaves the relationship. Yes, she has friends and a job. Yes, she spends a lot of time running the kids around and partaking in activities outside of her husband. It's not the same. Her desire is to spend time with you, the man she loves. To be left alone by her husband causes deep heartache for women. For most women, their largest fears boil down to isolation and deprivation. When she feels abandoned by you, she attacks with hurtful and disrespectful behavior. Her ability to verbally hurt you is her strongest weapon, and she uses it out of fear in an effort to try to get your attention.

When a wife begins to nag because you never spend time at home, never hang out with her, and never engage with the kids, chances are she is feeling abandoned and isolated. When you stop spending time together, the emotional distance between you two grows quickly.

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Leaving your wife alone or not paying enough attention to her could create more distance than you realize. 

2. Not Getting Close Enough

Your wife feels energized when she feels close to you. Refusing to let her know you is destructive to her and your marriage. While you strive to keep your independence, she longs to connect with you. It is not fair to either of you if you are only affectionate and attentive on the days you want sex or something from her. Affection and closeness ought to be an end in themselves, not a means to a different end.

Talking is not the only way women feel close, although it is an important one. Simple ways to fulfill your wife in this area are to hug her often, hold her hand, and to spend some time alone with her. When her need for closeness is met, she will be more inclined to respect your need for independence. When your wife feels close to you, she will also be more willing to engage with you on a more intimate, sexual level.

The important thing to remember is to help her feel connected. Try talking to her about your day, your fears, hopes, and dreams. Hold her hand when you go out together. Kiss her unexpectedly in the kitchen while she makes dinner. Sit next to her. Ask her how she is doing, and for a few minutes, give her your undivided attention while she answers. A little bit will go a long way and mean everything to her and, in turn, your marriage.

2.5. Closing Yourself Off to Her 

Women exist as an integrated circuit. The mind, body, and soul are closely linked — so, hurt feelings affect the entire system. A wife whose spirit is crushed may suffer from fatigue and confusion. Like a strand of Christmas lights — when one light goes out, they all go dark. Men compartmentalize. If one light goes out on his strand, all the other lights function properly, unaffected. Men are able to fully function when one area of their lives is not working properly.

Your wife does not understand the closed-off and mysterious way you operate. Things don't seem to bother you. You never want to talk to her. She knows you are stressed about work, yet you don't show it or express that further to her. She wonders how you can even function. Your wife is not trying to pry or sneak her way into no-man's land. She simply wants you to be open. She wants to truly see you. She feels loved when you share your fears, worries, and troubles. She wants to be that person for you and committed to being so when you got married. She won't try to fix you. She will listen.

Try talking to her about what is going on in your life. Women like to vent, without seeking a solution, and she wants to give you the freedom to share yourself verbally.

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Men: don't compartmentalize. Tell your wife what is going on. 

3. Always Trying to "Fix" Her

Even when she doesn't always say it, your wife sees you as her strength. As the bearer of her burdens. When she comes to you for help to lighten the load from the weight of her world, it is a compliment. She knows you can handle it.

Rather than trying to resolve and repair every issue, however, try to just listen to her. You might even ask if she needs a solution or just an ear. It will be a relief for both of you when you realize that sometimes you don't have to fix all the problems. Furthermore, when you listen, she will feel like you understand her (even if you don't, which is okay).

4. Never Saying "I'm Sorry."

All marriages have conflict. The refusal to apologize is a quick way to destroy yours. While conflict is not a pleasant thing, growth and closeness can increase as conflict is resolved. For your wife, an apology means she has moved forward through the conflict, and she is now seeking peace.

Many husbands see apologizing as a sure sign of weakness. They think, "If I apologize, she won't respect me." On the contrary, if you humbly apologize and ask her forgiveness, your wife will be putty in your hands. Your small act of contrition soothes her spirit, and acts as a healing balm over her heart. Furthermore, it shows that you're open and willing to make things work, that you care enough to admit to your faults and move past and through them. 

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5. Taking Her Insecurities Too Lightly

Your wife knows she is highly committed to you. When she sees you looking at other women, in the mall, on TV, on the computer, and in other places, she fears that you may be unfaithful and at the very least, it may make her uncomfortable and question your attraction to them, especially if she is solely just looking at you. Regardless, she is insecure and needs your reassurance, not any belittling, joking, or teasing. These activities all devalues her feelings, which are real. When you stare at a cute young thing as she saunters by, it may be a reminder to your wife of her many imperfections. She feels insecure because she wants to know that you still love her and you looking at other women may not be so reassuring of that. It's okay for you to look at other women, in fact, it's perfectly natural. The danger is when you are blatant and aggressive, disregarding your wife's feelings and staring in spite of her discomfort.

Your wife is motivated by your love and loyalty. She has committed her life to you, and wants to feel secure in the fact that you are equally committed to her. A big symbol of your loyalty to your wife is a wedding ring. For a woman, this is a sign of your fidelity. A married man without a ring seems to be trying to hide something. This requires very little effort, if any, on your part to reassure your wife in this way, and yet it would mean the world to her. Her peace of mind ought to be worth the cost of an inexpensive, outward expression of your fidelity. You have nothing to hide. A ring is a simple, outward expression of your devotion to your wife and to your marriage. This small gesture can have deep impact.

When your wife feels insecure, she may ask if you still think she is pretty. She may ask if you love her. She may ask if you think someone else is more attractive. This is not a trap. She feels she is moving toward you, by asking a question and starting a conversation. Talking is how women feel close. She is seeking your assurance of love and loyalty. Rather than make light of the moment, look at her. No, really look at her. Tell her she is the most beautiful woman you have ever seen. Give her the assurance she seeks, and ease her troubled mind. 

6. Ignoring the Importance of Simple Gestures

Your wife does not require fancy jewelry or expensive meals. Granted, those things are nice, and you like to treat your wife. However, it isn't always necessary.

She feels most loved by the small tokens of your love and appreciation. When you neglect the small things, it may feel to her like you are trying to buy her affection — or ease your own guilt — with the big things. Let your wife know that she is on your mind during the day. A single rose when you walk in the door speaks volumes to her language of love. Give her a call or send her a text during the day to let her know you are thinking of her. Offer to help with dinner, or wash the dishes. These are small gifts of your time that mean the world to your wife.

For your wife, the most important days of the year are her birthday and the day she married you. Celebrate these days by spending time with just her. It will mean more than any expensive gift ever could. The cost of the gift is secondary to the thought you put into it. She wants to feel special and important to you. The way to help her feel loved is to spend time with her alone. Even if you sit home and watch a movie, give her your undivided attention.

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A simple gesture like a nice cake on your wife's birthday (or any day, if she's a fan of sweets) can do more than you realize. 

7. Taking All the Fun Out of Sex

When you confuse sex with intimacy, it's no fun. When you only focus on your own orgasm, it's no fun. When you only show interest in your wife when you want to get lucky, it's no fun. When you devalue the depth of your sexual relationship with crude jokes and pornography, it's no fun. When you expect her to get excited instantly, it's no fun. When you neglect your wife's sexual needs, it's no fun.

When you are married, sex is supposed to be fun.

An intimate sharing, designed to bring you closer, sex should cement the bond between you. For example, think of your wife as a crockpot. Meanwhile, in this comparison, you are a microwave. Put a meal in a microwave, and you are eating within three minutes. A crockpot meal takes a lot of forethought. You need the proper ingredients. You have to put everything together, turn it on, and wait. Six or eight hours later, you enjoy a delicious meal. Your wife needs the same thoughtful consideration. Start in the morning with a kiss. Tell her she's beautiful. Women never get tired of hearing that from the man they love. Help get the kids ready for school. After work, ask about her day.

Slow, slow, slow. If you want to bring the fun back into sex, think crockpot, not microwave. You can microwave in the shower (not literally, obviously). 

8. Getting Lost in Bitterness and Anger

When you shut your wife out to brood in your despair, it fills her with fear. Women like to talk things out. Men like to shut things out. When you feel stressed about work, about money, about your relationship, you turn inward. This provokes your wife's fear of abandonment and rejection.

She thinks you don't love her when you refuse to speak. This fear, and her desire to resolve conflict, cause your wife to pursue you. She wants to talk it out, not to belittle or demean you, but to feel closer. She wants you to trust her, so she can trust you. She follows you around, asking if everything is alright. You run away from her and avoid wanting to discuss what is bothering you. She knows something is wrong, and she begins to assume that she is the problem.

You can stop this train wreck before it happens by opening up to your wife. She loves you. You can trust her. Share your real feelings with her, and she will open her heart to you.

9. Not Taking Responsibility 

Whether it's an addiction, an affair or poor performance in your life, many times, husbands point to their wives as the reason for their weakness. "She makes me drink because of her nagging. I cheated because she wouldn't take care of me. I'm doing poorly because she never encourages me."

It's time to take full responsibility for your own behavior. You need to take ownership of your actions. You choose to drink. You choose to cheat. You choose to work or not work. You actively do all these things on your own. Rather than blaming someone or something else, stand up and take control. Make your life reflect the values you desire. Your life is completely under your control. Today, you can choose differently. You can create exactly the life you want. Furthermore, if your wife really is the root of all the problems in your life, then take control of that as well and man up and tell her the truth. She can't change if you aren't willing to express the problem.

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If you have an addiction or problem, don't always blame your wife. 

10. Picking the Wrong Woman. Again. 

A woman in distress, who just moves from crisis to crisis, will continue to be in distress after you marry her. A nitpicking woman who criticizes your every decision will continue to nitpick. A control freak always wants control, even after the wedding. The bottom line is: if she is the wrong woman before the marriage, she'll be the wrong woman when and after you get married. 

If you want a nice wife, then date a nice woman and marry her. Treat her with love and respect and she will return the kindness. Trying to rescue a woman in distress will only lead you to feel used and unappreciated. A strong marriage begins with a good-willed woman and a good-willed man. It flourishes as you both grow in love and respect toward each other.

Choosing the wrong woman sets you up for failure every time. Although you might like the feeling of being a knight in shining armor rescuing a damsel in distress, the reality of being married is much harder and much less idealistic. Marriage takes work, from both the husband and the wife. When both are committed to making the marriage a good experience, then it has a better chance of succeeding.

Work on Yourself

While this list may seem daunting, it is important to remember that the main goal of marriage should be peace and happiness. If life is stressful, work on changing your perception. You can see peace instead of stress. You are only one thought away from a peaceful life. If you feel unhappy, seek those thing that will fulfill you in life. Just be happy. The simplest route to something is to just be. The only person you can change is yourself.